A new/ different life

I became a vegetarian overnight. Twenty days ago! A health challenge has brought me to this new place.

I asked God to renew my spirit over one year ago and it seems he has included my body and my mind at the same time. My life as I knew it has been turned upside down.

If I had known would I have asked? Yet I inch along knowing that God cares for me and wants the best for his child. Actually that is the only thought I have been hanging on to for a very long time.

When I wrestle and question why did this happen or the next happen, it comes right back to Jeremiah 29:11; my Heavenly Father has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Then I go to Proverbs 3 and I am told to lean not on my own understanding but acknowledge Him in all my ways and He will direct my paths.

I wrestle with my shortcomings and pray every time that God would just move me from the place where I am. Then I remember that struggling is how a butterfly strengthens its wings coming out of the cocoon.

Lord I thank you for your loving tender care. You didn't bring me this far to leave me and neither did you teach me to swim to let me drown.