A new/ different life

I became a vegetarian overnight. Twenty days ago! A health challenge has brought me to this new place.

I asked God to renew my spirit over one year ago and it seems he has included my body and my mind at the same time. My life as I knew it has been turned upside down.

If I had known would I have asked? Yet I inch along knowing that God cares for me and wants the best for his child. Actually that is the only thought I have been hanging on to for a very long time.

When I wrestle and question why did this happen or the next happen, it comes right back to Jeremiah 29:11; my Heavenly Father has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Then I go to Proverbs 3 and I am told to lean not on my own understanding but acknowledge Him in all my ways and He will direct my paths.

I wrestle with my shortcomings and pray every time that God would just move me from the place where I am. Then I remember that struggling is how a butterfly strengthens its wings coming out of the cocoon.

Lord I thank you for your loving tender care. You didn't bring me this far to leave me and neither did you teach me to swim to let me drown. 

It's Saturday morning and it is shaping up to be a beautiful day. The Sun is in its glory and the grass is looking lush and green again after so many months of being brown and dry.

What's on my mind? Seems nothing at all lately.

I try to keep away from bad news since it is mostly unhelpful. Hardly read newspapers and stopped watching TV a while ago.

Did my devotions this morning but forgot to pray. That happens a lot.

I write my prayers down since I forget stuff, but then I get tired of repeating them. I am thinking about trying cue cards. There has to be an easier way to be an intercessor.


I am toying with an idea: should we pray for specific things or just that God's will be done? Or should we mix it up? Should we pray for causes or persons? Or again mix it up?

Did some reading online today and got to thinking. How come my church does not pray for anything or anyone specifically on an ongoing basis? We pray every Sunday for our country's leaders and our bishops and priests etc, but this seems to be insufficient.

Are we supposed to pray for those in the world, or only those in the Household of faith? I get the feeling we are supposed to pray often and for much. But this area seems blurry. 

I mean, when we look around we can see evidence of the broken state we are in as a planet; environmentally, financially, morally and so on. The question may very well arise, what is the Christian mandate when looking at this?

Is it to preach the Gospel? Or will the words 'love your neighbour as yourself' compel us to get on our knees and intercede for a world which is deluded? And how will we really do that when the church itself seems to be in need of intercession as well?

Too many questions it seems.

Just wondering out loud.

As I set this up this blog, I am wondering if I really want to do this. These things can be so public.
 
Yet it is an attempt to work out my salvation in the Lord. To reflect, muse, or ramble as often as I need to on anything going on in my head.

Well for starters, it is a sunny day in my neck of the woods. It is also very quiet in the neighbourhood; no vehicle horns blaring; not even a bird chirping.

Seemingly started the day off on the wrong foot since up to now I have not completed my morning quiet time. Too many things going on all at once I suspect.

Let me go and correct that.